Well, in traditional fashion, I have fallen gravely ill (okay, well, a bit flu-y at least) following my flurry of activity in May. Fortunately, this held off in time for me to finish performing in the show as Lily. It went well!
The character really stressed and exhausted me in terms of living on stage with what she has gone through and then performing that intensity over a very long scene arc. But I feel like I took away some positive attributes of the character as well, and I miss her already!
What I especially like about Lily (that so differs from myself) is her tough forthrightness. I felt somehow stronger when I traveled home on the Tube late at night with her black eye painted on my face. Less wanting to invisibly fade into the fabric of the seat and more like, ‘Yeah? You lookin’ at me? I don’t care! I’ve seen shit!’
So, what’s next?
Putting myself back out there starting in July and hoping that I am asked to audition.
I finally got those headshots taken this week. And yes, it did occur in the middle of my plague outbreak. And spot outbreak. And period. Ideal conditions to have a camera focus on your face, really. The photographer was like, ‘You’re really easy to shoot – you don’t seem nervous!’ and I thought, That’s because I’m too ill to be nervous… must… stand… upright… and… smise…..
That said, she (Alishia Love) did a really amazing job and got some shots I can definitely use. Website makeover, here we come!
I have to say though that using social media to market myself as an actor is pretty repugnant to me. It’s so different from pushing yourself as a musician–like even as a solo artist, you can hide behind some band moniker. But as an actor, it’s just you. HOWEVER, in that same way, I’m not sure that I really need to do any marketing at all on those stupid platforms anyway? Like, I don’t feel pressure to use social media as some vehicle to promote my work–I can just exist there as Ali again, if I want to, and dip into super useful theatre forums on Facebook. Because I feel like the best way to ‘market’ yourself as an actor is to just be your freaking self/a normal (well, semi-normal) human being! Being an actor is indivisible from my selfhood, so it’s hard for me to think about it in grotesque mercenary terms. So I’m just not gonna.
I’m just gonna be me for a little while.
I have additionally been thinking about a direction for Daze & Weekes. Yes yes, I know I am nearly two years in and keep changing my mind and making things over. But I think I have finally thought of the way I want to make my categories slightly more streamlined and cohesive. Moving forward, it should mostly be the same stuff you know and love (haha!)… with slightly more of a thematic focus on acting/entertainment/theatre.
Proposed (to myself) categories include:
- Professional Progress Updates (including observational humour and mental health status as relates to being an artist <– I think I need to not be afraid to make this a focus as it might be helpful for others who suffer from similar problems)
- Historical Stuff (perhaps mostly as pertain to the Victorian theatre/actresses)
- Reviews of Shitty Television/What’s on the BBC
- Travels with Sinéad
- Vlog (monologues or other funnies)
Sound pretty much like what I’ve been doing? Well, in my head it is more directional and manageable than my previous 87 other additional categories floating around…. so there! I’ll be making some visual tweaks and changes to the website over the next week as well.
Okey dokey, that’s all for now. As always, thank you for stopping by! And don’t forget…… the new season of Poldark starts tonight! Well, actually, you can go ahead and forget if you want because I will be filling you in later.
Until next time……..